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2008-01-17 - No internet and staying sober and all that.
2007-11-11 - Here I am.
2007-07-05 - These days.
2007-05-17 - Building a new house and in a bad place in my head.
2007-04-10 - Cutting him loose.
2007-03-26 - Laid out of work and a good day.
2007-03-18 - Didn't get the job and my birthday is coming.
2007-03-14 - Lost my point and bid on another job.
2007-03-01 - This job sucks ass.
2007-01-02 - The Holidays and She Died.
2006-11-26 - Long talk, working at the plant, and my new car.
2006-11-11 - Don't know how to fix this.
2006-11-05 - What else?
2006-08-26 - Traumatic week.
2006-08-03 - The Game and Two More Days
2006-07-27 - Got the day job.
2006-07-12 - Here I Am.
2006-06-14 - Gaining Weight Like Its Going Out Of Style.
2006-05-30 - Three days in a nutshell.
2006-05-21 - My Life as of Late.
2006-05-02 - Not much happening here.
2006-04-18 - Puppies.
2006-03-29 - Very brief update.
2006-03-08 - The funeral and the move.
2006-03-01 - Granny died.
2006-02-17 - Might Be Moving.
2006-02-03 - I Don't Get It.
2006-02-02 - What Do I Write?
2006-01-25 - Back From Our Trip
2006-01-20 - Bothers Isn't The Right Word
2006-01-18 - My Year So Far.
2005-12-29 - Great Christmas.
2005-12-20 - Fatty fatty four by four and another suicide
2005-12-11 - Has it really been this long?
2005-11-15 - In Search of the Perfect Gift.
2005-11-14 - Same ole same ole and Thanksgiving.
2005-11-03 - Not resolved...but over...for now.
2005-10-23 - The fight.
2005-10-11 - Three strikes you're out and insomnia.
2005-09-26 - Our anniversary.
2005-09-22 - Finally had a day off.
2005-09-09 - No weekend and alot of talking.
2005-09-05 - Strangers in my house.
2005-08-28 - Things are getting better.
2005-08-21 - I'm an idiot.
2005-08-13 - SHE is here.
2005-07-31 - Our weekend so far.
2005-07-27 - Their dad is in the hospital.
2005-07-21 - The kids are here.
2005-07-17 - Quick update.
2005-07-03 - Lordhaveusmercymypeoplemypeople.
2005-07-02 - Two weeks in a nutshell....sorta.
2005-06-19 - Spent the day together.
2005-06-13 - The weekend.
2005-06-06 - I'm home and results from the coochie doc.
2005-05-22 - Going to the coochie doc and vacation.
2005-05-15 - What's next?
2005-05-04 - I failed miserably.
2005-04-29 - John Anderson and Fanny Grace.
2005-04-25 - My entry disappeared.
2005-04-25 - Sick again and miserable birthday.
2005-04-17 - Been sick and the upcoming cookout.
2005-04-11 - I have a problem.
2005-04-04 - OCD and her job switch.
2005-03-29 - What do I do?
2005-03-26 - Dunston in da house.
2005-03-25 - Results and other stuff.
2005-03-18 - Wierd twenty four hours.
2005-03-15 - Great weekend.
2005-03-11 - Going away for the weekend.
2005-03-10 - Alot of talking.
2005-03-07 - The phone call.
2005-03-05 - The entry that never was.
2005-02-28 - Great weekend and problem with a friend.
2005-02-25 - Uneventful peace.
2005-02-23 - New appreciation.
2005-02-15 - Amazing Valentines Night.
2005-02-14 - Settling Down.
2005-02-09 - Found out the details.
2005-02-07 - Amazing weekend.
2005-02-04 - I'mmmmm Baaaccckkkk
2005-01-22 - Quick update.
2005-01-14 - Moving!
2005-01-05 - Moving soon and need a miracle.
2004-12-30 - Short and quick.
2004-12-24 - Not solely focused on the dark places.
2004-12-17 - Desperate.
2004-12-13 - Four survivors and talking it out.
2004-12-06 - Fish and the rose.
2004-12-03 - General update.
2004-11-22 - She's home.
2004-11-21 - Confirmation and relief.
2004-11-18 - She's out of town and I'm rambling....coincidence?
2004-11-12 - Unexpected trip.
2004-11-10 - Deal with my anger.
2004-11-09 - Laid back weekend.
2004-10-28 - So different.
2004-10-26 - I think................
2004-10-21 - The little terrorist died.
2004-10-21 - -
2004-10-20 - Why.....How?
2004-10-18 - Its different.
2004-10-13 - Alot of talking.
2004-10-08 - It feels good.
2004-10-05 - Why is SHE crying?
2004-10-02 - Waiting for daylight.
2004-09-30 - Met the folks.
2004-09-29 - Falling out of my snatch and the weekend.
2004-09-24 - Looking forward to the weekend...but nervous.
2004-09-23 - In a nutshell.
2004-09-20 - Amazing weekend.
2004-09-14 - I had a date.
2004-09-11 - Details about yesterdays entry.
2004-09-10 - When did this happen??
2004-09-08 - Still sick.
2004-09-07 - Let me give them my cooties.
2004-09-06 - I have the flu.
2004-09-03 - I have a question.
2004-09-02 - The coochie doc.
2004-08-31 - Productive weekend.
2004-08-28 - Cleaning out the clutter.
2004-08-24 - I fought back.
2004-08-23 - New family member.
2004-08-21 - Too tired tocare.
2004-08-17 - It does bother me.
2004-08-15 - Added someone to my line.
2004-08-11 - Conversation with her.
2004-08-08 - Analyzing.
2004-08-06 - What do I want?
2004-08-01 - Last night of vacation.
2004-07-27 - The vacation continues......
2004-07-26 - Vacation week.
2004-07-22 - Depression or hormones?
2004-07-20 - Just one of them days
2004-07-18 - Where does that leave me?
2004-07-08 - Been a busy week.
2004-07-05 - Dykemobile and still makin it.
2004-07-02 - Still focusing on ME.
2004-06-28 - Hiding for too long.
2004-06-24 - Down to uncomfortableness.
2004-06-18 - Back to the coochie doc.
2004-06-17 - The deleted entry.
2004-06-11 - The week.
2004-06-07 - The weekend.
2004-06-02 - Update.
2004-05-30 - Crash
2004-05-27 - Fast. Everything fast, then crash.
2004-05-26 - Nothing new.
2004-05-24 - Still being a bitch.
2004-05-22 - Evil, asshole bitch.
2004-05-21 - Hurting.
2004-05-20 - Kitten.
2004-05-18 - Drama weekend and the death of a friend.
2004-05-14 - Results.
2004-05-13 - My cooking skills.
2004-05-13 - Computer crashed.
2004-05-09 - Day from hell.
2004-05-07 - Keepin the kids.
2004-05-07 - Not sleeping.
2004-05-05 - Last night.
2004-05-05 - Went back to work.
2004-05-03 - One more night at home.
2004-05-02 - Alive....but not kicking yet.
2004-04-30 - Leaving in a few minutes.
2004-04-30 - A few hours.
2004-04-29 - Talking to her and tommorrow.
2004-04-28 - Day after tommorrow.
2004-04-28 - Remembering.
2004-04-27 - My horoscope.
2004-04-27 - Drinking and the dream.
2004-04-26 - Dani that signed my guestbook.....
2004-04-25 - My birthday.
2004-04-21 - Old letters and emails.
2004-04-21 - Cher.
2004-04-20 - The surgery and in pain.
2004-04-18 - Don't have my stuffed animal.
2004-04-16 - Uncomfortable.
2004-04-15 - Surgery.
2004-04-15 - Few hours.
2004-04-14 - Tommorrow is the day.
2004-04-13 - Jumbled thoughts.
2004-04-13 - Anger and depression.
2004-04-12 - Angry.
2004-04-12 - The weekend and my hair.
2004-04-09 - DUB.
2004-04-09 - Why is it?
2004-04-08 - Passed up opportunities.
2004-04-07 - Planning the weekend and my birthday.
2004-04-05 - Right now.
2004-04-02 - Another bad sleep night.
2004-04-01 - Day in bed and headache.
2004-03-31 - THAT HURT and short conversation.
2004-03-30 - Sore and music.
2004-03-30 - Still hurts.
2004-03-29 - My coochie snorcher hurts.
2004-03-28 - Living in my reality.
2004-03-28 - More thinking.
2004-03-26 - What do you do?
2004-03-25 - More of the same.
2004-03-25 - Thinking back.
2004-03-24 - Ebay bids, time off, going back to the doctor.
2004-03-23 - Today.
2004-03-22 - Bad bad day.
2004-03-22 - Again.
2004-03-20 - Ebay bid.
2004-03-19 - Changes.
2004-03-17 - The trip, I'm on the list
2004-03-11 - The Story of Me......Part 2.
2004-03-10 - The Story Of Me.......Part One
2004-03-09 - Always something.
2004-03-07 - Killing time.
2004-03-07 - What do I do?
2004-03-07 - Wierd again.
2004-03-06 - X'ed out entry and trusting people.
2004-03-05 - A day in the life of "what if" , doors and hallways.
2004-03-04 - I had a dream.
2004-03-04 - I had a moment today.
2004-03-03 - Lost a good entry.....quick recap.
2004-03-02 - Great trip, still bleeding.
2004-02-25 - Back to work and still no ass.
2004-02-22 - Talk of the family.
2004-02-21 - Painful day.
2004-02-20 - Mental health time.
2004-02-12 - One more day.
2004-02-11 - What does it mean, office screw up.
2004-02-10 - This is ridiculous.
2004-02-08 - I did it again.
2004-02-08 - Crack smoking farm animal store.
2004-02-07 - Still in my pj's.
2004-02-06 - My sisters ex husband is in town.
2004-02-04 - Great trip.
2004-01-30 - Leaving tommorrow.
2004-01-28 - Still iced in, driving and falling, lost in my head.
2004-01-26 - More of the same.
2004-01-26 - A nothing day.
2004-01-24 - Not much worth writing about.
2004-01-22 - My parents.
2004-01-21 - Amazing weekend.
2004-01-17 - Can't sleep.
2004-01-15 - Day by day.
2004-01-14 - Not sleeping good and this weekend.
2004-01-13 - Slept through appointment and Ebay.
2004-01-11 - Killing vampires and tommorrows appointment.
2004-01-11 - Changes and a friends dream.
2004-01-10 - No sleep and no books.
2004-01-09 - Snowing.
2004-01-08 - Rescheduled appointment.
2004-01-06 - It was a good trip.
2004-01-02 - Went, Came back, going again.
2003-12-31 - No word yet and headache
2003-12-31 - Todays appointment and new years eve
2003-12-29 - Changes
2003-12-29 - Feeling better and distance.
2003-12-26 - Thinking things.
2003-12-26 - Not as bad as I thought and sick.
2003-12-23 - Missing her.
2003-12-23 - The weekend and stomach virus.
2003-12-19 - Ready to go and shopping.
2003-12-18 - Telling my mother and going to see her.
2003-12-17 - Headache and happy pills.....not.
2003-12-16 - Its been a day.
2003-12-14 - Couldn't write the letter.
2003-12-12 - What happened to me?
2003-12-11 - Muted.
2003-12-09 - Skin crawling
2003-12-06 - Medications
2003-12-04 - I didn't back out.
2003-12-02 - Counseling.
2003-11-30 - Wish I could put into words.
2003-11-30 - Cleaning and staying sober.
2003-11-28 - Hard not to drink.
2003-11-28 - The letters.
2003-11-27 - Holidays suck ass
2003-11-26 - Losing more of my ass and assorted thoughts
2003-11-25 - Out of the blue.
2003-11-23 - Admitting to needing someone
2003-11-22 - Hiding.
2003-11-21 - Lying to myself.
2003-11-19 - Still here.
2003-11-18 - Tempted to just go.
2003-11-18 - The weekend.
2003-11-14 - Going to see her this weekend.
2003-11-13 - She called again, still holding.
2003-11-12 - Rationalizing.
2003-11-12 - Someone else.
2003-11-11 - The picture.
2003-11-11 - Respecting her wishes and shopping.
2003-11-11 - That song.
2003-11-10 - Things I can't say.
2003-11-10 - The dream.
2003-11-09 - Lightening storm lamps, letters.
2003-11-09 - Inner sociopath and clothes
2003-11-09 - Still can't sleep.
2003-11-09 - Got a little more constructive.
2003-11-08 - The perfect "V" formation.
2003-11-08 - Still in that mood.
2003-11-08 - The smile in her voice.
2003-11-07 - Dude...you still ain't got a car.
2003-11-07 - I can't sleep.
2003-11-07 - Dude, wheres my car?
2003-11-06 - Opening line.
2003-11-05 - Finding some of my pieces.
2003-11-04 - Vision
2003-11-04 - Jeans, music
2003-11-03 - What if?
2003-11-02 - Then and now, a very bad sign.
2003-11-01 - Is this helping, here
2003-10-30 - Tried to explain
2003-10-29 - The dream.
2003-10-29 - One thing at a time, haven't talked to her, allergic to my tears
2003-10-28 - The phone call.
2003-10-23 - Tired.
2003-10-23 - You promised.
2003-10-22 - A little elaborating.
2003-10-22 - Wanting to be angry, I have the flu.
2003-10-20 - I talked to her.
2003-10-20 - Won't do this again.
2003-10-19 - Five days without a word.
2003-10-19 - Irrational thoughts, editing, Charlies Angel.
2003-10-18 - Headlights that will never come.
2003-10-16 - Thoughts and implications.
2003-10-16 - More quiz results.
2003-10-15 - Quiz results
2003-10-15 - Heroin of the soul.
2003-10-14 - Rough night.
2003-10-14 - All I can do.
2003-10-14 - I needed to purge.
2003-10-13 - Won't be able to write much...or often....for a while.
2003-10-13 - No earth shattering news.
2003-10-12 - I had more to write about than I thought.
2003-10-12 - Playlists and her call
2003-10-12 - I can't sleep.
2003-10-11 - Why the heart?
2003-10-11 - Changing.....continued.
2003-10-10 - Caught and Changing
2003-10-09 - Still can't put it into words.
2003-10-08 - I found my motivation.
2003-10-07 - Five seconds and a lifetime.
2003-10-07 - Fractured thoughts.
2003-10-06 - Fight without fighting.
2003-10-05 - I should not have survived.
2003-10-05 - Want to write.
2003-10-04 - Resigned, Naked Church Rampage
2003-10-03 - Purpose.
2003-10-02 - Waterfalls.
2003-10-02 - Telling Teddy.
2003-10-02 - BTW
2003-10-02 - She didn't call.
2003-10-01 - Rest In Pieces
2003-10-01 - Naked soul
2003-09-30 - DykeInside to Enterprise
2003-09-30 - Getting back to work and my error message
2003-09-30 - Motivated to sit back down.
2003-09-30 - Thank you Sammy
2003-09-29 - See....do you see???
2003-09-28 - Half asleep "I love yous"
2003-09-28 - Turning my life into a musical.
2003-09-27 - Yesterdays journey.
2003-09-26 - Unable to find the words.
2003-09-25 - The beginning.....sort of.
2003-09-24 - I need a place